豈止是一場幻覺記憶




安華的雞姦疑案迄今只能說是「戲劇性」,與10年前驚天動地的境遇是煙火相望。即然是戲劇性,事態的本質是誇張、大起大落與荒謬,形同大馬惡質政治的表象。荒謬到出動蒙臉特警、荷槍實彈來扣捕、押送安華,你不禁會想怎麼安華犯了罪大惡極的罪行嗎?難道他危害到公眾安全嗎?


究其實,個人性行為有損及公眾利益嗎?十年前安華入獄,內情猶如一場空難後的黑盒子,怎樣也打不開;但大馬的司法、執法制度確是陷入一場災難。同時,十年前「雞姦」、「肛交」等的字眼從禁忌成為無處不見的報章標題,10年後我國的政治遊戲還是要與「肛門」扯上關係,附含著大馬政治仍然走不上正道的寓意。然而,我們對法理的了解是否有加深?特別是10年光景裡纏繞著安華的377條文?



賽夫也該有罪嗎?


刑事法典第377條文其實是指「獸交」。而經過修訂後,已增添A至E的條款,整個條文就是圍繞著「異常的性交行為」,如口交與肛交就是犯法,要挨鞭坐牢,也是刑罪化。不過,377條文B條款有注明「自愿性」進行這種性交行為,而C條款則闡明「脅迫」發生口交或肛交。所以,前部長口交引爆的黃碟風波其實已觸犯377B條文,但沒人要追究;反而現在只有一個23歲的小伙子宣稱被安華雞姦,則是片面之詞,但證據是否確鑿?


如果肛交行為確實發生了,那麼賽夫布卡里是否會被控?如果他是自愿性肛交,他也觸犯法律,理應要繩之以法。別忘記十年前被指「自愿性」與安華肛交的「受害者」,包括其幕僚慕納瓦、義弟蘇瑪也在肛交罪名下被控定罪(後來兩人皆披露是屈打成招),而安華前司機阿茲占則沒被入罪,因為他聲稱是被逼的。


迄今賽夫的報案書內情不詳,警方的調查也神秘兮兮。我們只從媒體繪聲繪影的報導中被告知,賽夫被雞姦8次,還一度想要輕生;這只讓我們猜想到賽夫可能是被脅迫而逼于無奈就範,那他就可以逃過377B條文指控。只是當他以勝利者的姿勢高姿態亮相,你很想像他就是被姦8次的「受害者」。人民就聯想:即使肛交是煞有其事,那是否是你情我愿?


警方已言明是援引377C條文來調查安華,那如何蒐證指證「8次」都是非自愿的雞姦?如果到最後賽夫是捏造指控,他也更應被控。其實這宗疑案還未訴諸法庭,已落在民間法庭中經過一輪又一輪的臆測與審判,因為眼睛就是證據,記憶就是判例。許多人都說如今的翻版指控儼然是「幻覺記憶」,但怎麼說十年前的枉法濫權、社會失序的陰影還是烙印太深、讓人驚懼萬分,否則為何安華週三被捕時,坊間成了驚弓之鳥擔心示威又再發生?


十年前後的差別


只是十年前後是否有差別?十年前安華身陷囹圄讓馬來社會反彈太大,登州政權在翌年大選變天,整個大馬政治生態也因烈火莫熄與公正黨的誕生而改寫。十年後如果這種隻手遮天、濫用法紀的舊事重演,恐怕是另一輪大馬社會的撕裂,對司法、警隊等機關的信仰再度崩潰。


安華被扣一天後又暫時釋放,其實滲透出無比懸念,也反映出有關當局再也不能粗線條對付,而改用懷柔的政治手段來應付,是顧忌到安華風波引起的負面效應,特別是政治沖擊、社會的穩定、政府司法與執法機構的考驗。這也是今非昔比的一個對照。


十年後人民還會輕易相信、順從有關當局聲稱「雞姦」有發生嗎?網絡、手機短訊等無遠弗屆的傳播效應,已將話語權重歸民眾,現在應是理性抬頭的時刻。在認真地思辯、關注著安華事件的演變,會比街頭聚集示威來得好。但是,我會更擔心這種形似惡質的政治人物明爭暗斗,會挾著民眾權益當「人質」。試想如果有關當局以「聽說有大集會」之由動輒就封路而大塞車,那麼除了咆哮以外,我們可真望天打掛了。


注:這是加長版的專欄文章

羅國本的馬來文演講

以「林甘短片」一炮而紅的羅國本,意外中選為格拉那再也國會議員後,身形「熊腰虎背」、卻又長著一張娃娃臉的他往往成為注目焦點。週二下午辯論時,他有機會參與辯論,開腔討論大馬的司法問題,卻是趣味連連。

他甫出場即吸引傳媒室的記者的注意。只見羅國本一手拿著講稿,以生硬的馬來語照紙宣讀,一如同小學生上台演講,另一隻手則忙著比手勢,甚至又撫著麥克風,又捂住肚子般地,忐忑不安之心情盡顯無遺。

這是羅國本第二次開腔,只有在第一季國會下議院時,他及時提問一道問題,之後就成為議席上的「乖乖牌」,從未聽見他雄辯,即使他是一名法學碩士,又曾放洋英國,但馬來文不靈光,在下議院是英雄無用武之地。

讀著讀著,羅國本提到「在我看來」(Pada pendapat saya),他竟說成「…pendapatan…」(意即「收入」),整個句子的意思扭曲成「在我的收入」,但他還不自覺,然而已惹來哄堂大笑,羅國本尷尬地連聲道歉。

隨後,羅國本如履薄冰地唸讀講稿,他看來對馬來文的拼音無法充足掌握,以致每個詞的音節在不適當的地方停頓,聽起來時卡著卡著的拼字。同時,音調平鋪,節奏緩慢,大家都必須認真地聆聽,才能理解他的內容。我更聽到「punggung」(屁股)一字爆出來,就感到莫名其妙。

所以,羅的「處女演講」內容被他的演講表現完全遮蓋了。到最後他提到艾琳案多番展延時被「踢來踢去」,就用幾句英文說「到底這是審案還是足球賽呢?」,說得就特別流利。

羅國本提到司法症結問題時作結論時說,又語驚四座:「我認同壞蘋果論,但是就像你在家裡看到有一隻蟑螂,其實家裡可能有幾千隻蟑螂。」

他的「蟑螂論」,再度引來全場哄笑,結束了幾分鐘娛樂效果十足的演說。




16-7-2008 拉闊國會─「當天人物」欄

Interview with Professor William Case


對于大馬人的政治,許多人會納悶得不知如何解說,是一種難以啟齒的羞辱,也是一種無從說起的無奈。

現在我喜歡看一些新鮮的聲音來評述大本地當然有許多文人可以評論,但多以咖啡店的噴口水方式,使用形容詞一連串,到最後的結尾就是「讓我們拭目以待」類的文章,根本沒有自己的論點。

我找到在香港城市大學任教的Professor William Case來作一個電郵訪問。他是該大學亞洲與國際學系東南亞研究中心主任。




我是從一篇國際新聞報導讀到他的見解後,就嘗試聯絡他來評述308大選後的100天。那時是爆發安華雞姦疑云之前,不過由于他忙著許久,所以時隔好久,才收到他的答覆。


然而,當時已錯過了最佳的出街時機,因為一切已遭到雞姦案、宣誓書等的迭起風波鬧得天翻地覆。


我是在昨日(13日)才有機會將專訪整理成《時事人物》,由于要調適成更符合時宜,所以取角有些不一樣了,便從回教黨的回教化議程纏繞民聯來切入。


後來就接到公正黨的電話,認為該專訪稿的角度與《馬來西亞前鋒報》的論調大同小異,就是那種炒作民聯裡失和的情況來渲染。

一個海外執教的學者對大馬政局有興趣,他們都是通過閱讀媒體報導或是相識的本地朋友來取得材料去認識,他們的認知可能有所偏頗,但主調也是走不遠的。而民聯在執政100天來還未塵埃未落定,其實大家都看得到問題在哪裡,包括安華過去一直喊稱會有人跳槽、會奪權政府等,已成功佈下疑云滿天。


我將訪問的對答錄完完整整地張貼出來,作為一個採訪後的附筆。


It's always a good thing to read a comprehensive and insightful comments on Malaysia political landscape via academic perspective. I appreciate Professor William Case's effort to share with us his insight


Here are the interview's full Q & A transcript.


Q: Chan Foo Hoong

A: Professor William Case

Date: 29 June 2008


1. Q:How do you see Malaysia has changed since 8 March?


The political landscape has changed much, with the UMNO-led government losing its 2/3 parliamentary majority for the first time in 40 years. It has also lost control over an unprecedented five states.


The country’s authoritarian politics, variously understood as a hybrid, semi-authoritarian, or electoral authoritarian regime are shown now to be much more competitive, to the extent that a democratic transition may be under way.

2. What do you think of the multi-pronged attack suffering by UMNO now? Basically what are the thorny issues?


The ruling coalition was gravely weakened because of protest votes that were cast in such expected numbers that much more than protest was registered. As disaffected members of the ruling coalition consider defecting, the government may actually fall. The prime minister, Abdullah Badawi, suffers a real dilemma.


On the one hand, voters demand that he reduce government corruption. But for him to do this in any serious way, would alienate many top politicians inside UMNO who demand patronage, which is after all the main motivation even for involvement in UMNO. It thus much more the fault of UMNO’s faction leaders, the so-called warlords, than it is Abdullah’s (though his family too seems to have engaged in corrupt practices) that the government fared so poorly in the last election.

3. The call for Malaysian Prime Minister Abdullah Badawi to step down is overwhelming and people getting impatience for it, the question is how and when. Do you think Abdullah still able to buy time to stay?
What do you think of the transition plan without spelling out timeframe?


As the nature of grievances within Malaysia changes from discontents over corruption to economic hardship, it may be that attitudes toward Abdullah will change—and that pressure on him to resign will subside.


People will be less concerned about corruption; more concerned with sound economic management. The ruling coalition is viewed as a better economic manager than the opposition.


So, Abdullah may be able to delay or even ward off the forces that seek to oust him, particularly when those who would succeed him in the party themselves suffer so many weaknesses. It is not obvious that Najib, Razaleigh, or Muyideen would be any more effective than Abdullah in reducing rates of corruption or restoring economic growth.

4. What would be the scenario assuming Abdullah still cling to power after year-end UMNO election and retain for years? And how would his departure time benefits opposition party?

Abdullah looks increasingly likely to last in office until the year end, possibly longer. Much will change over the next six months. Public criticism will shift increasingly away from the ruling coalition to the opposition’s inability to make significant improvements in the states that they control. Further, if finally Abdullah is pushed out, it is very unclear whether this would be to the opposition’s benefit. Abdullah has been more liberal in his approach toward parliament and the media than Najib, for example, would be expected to be.

5. Former premier Dr Mahathir quit UMNO and critically attack Abdullah through blogging or giving speeches, is the former premier still staying on the high level of political relevance? Is he making any impact to UMNO?


Mahathir still has some capacity to embarrass the government, but first his denunciations, then his resignation from the party has significantly diminished his standing. Very few party members have heeded his call to leave UMNO, a good indicator that they see no political life or more specifically, opportunities for patronage outside the party.


6. Mahathir has just predicted that UMNO will be destroyed totally as long as Abdullah still in the office, if there's any worse-case scenario for that, how much it will cost UMNO?


Mahathir’s predictions are no longer taken seriously, I don’t think. His marginalization is made clear by the fact that while he now ostracized by UMNO, he would certainly not be welcome in the opposition.


So, he really has nowhere to go, except his blog, which will continue to have "entertainment" value, but little substantive impact. It must also be remembered that Mahathir himself is vulnerable, given his many transgressions while in power.

7. Has UMNO taking sufficient and effective initiatives to re-marketing or revive itself after political tsunami?


UMNO is showing signs of trying to reinvent itself as a reformist party—and has begun to take a few substantive, if disjointed, steps in this direction. It’s reconsidering media licensing, the ban on student participation in politics, the politicization of the judiciary, and possibly even preventive detention under the ISA will enhance UMNO’s standing.


So too will any serious efforts to rein in corruption. Khir Toyo appears to be shaping up as an effective opposition leader in the Selangor state assembly. Increasingly, scrutiny will shift from the government’s record of corruption to the Pakatan Rakyat’s ineffectiveness.

8. Do you agree that Abdullah and his son-in-law Khairy becoming the liability of the party now following the accusation of nepotism?


Though an intelligent and forceful character, Khairy further diminishes the standing of Abdullah and UMNO. Khairy is too deeply linked to business activities and conflicts of interest. His attacks at the last UMNO general assembly on the leaders of social protests and movements also contributed to his image of intolerance—which is exactly the image that UMNO must change if it is to reenergize support among non-Malay communities.


9. Do you think Sabah and Sarawak has been mistreated by the BN government while they ensure the final victory of BN?

Sarawak has not been mistreated so much by the federal government as it has by its own state leadership. In serving essentially as the government’s proxy in Sarawak, Taib has been given free reign. The scale of his family’s corruption has been extraordinary, with adverse impact on indigenous communities—which seem unable to mount meaningful political resistance—and the environment.


In Sarawak, indigenous communities have been better able to organize, but remain divided by religion and weakened by the influx of migrants. It is true that BN leaders in the two states have delivered crucial support to the government at the federal level, especially in this last election, when BN won less than half the popular vote on the peninsula.


But I am not one of those who believe that the states in which gas and mineral reserves happen to be located necessarily deserve a vastly disproportionate share of this wealth. Rather, I think it should be shared out more equitably across all states and citizens in pursuit of development aims. The challenge lies in preventing this wealth from reinforcing the government’s authoritarian politics and corrupt practices—as happens routinely in oil producing countries.

10. What are the impact of the political uncertainty towards Malaysia economically and socially?


Malaysia’s economy, like the economies of most countries just now, is under threat, especially from weakening investment and rising inflation. This has little to do with the political uncertainties that have grown out of the last election.


Indeed, the government has responded bravely by removing at one fell swoop the petroleum subsidy. This too may gradually be understood as a liberalizing reform, especially as the government devises rebate systems with which to compensate persons who are hit hardest or make efforts to consume least (e.g. owners of small vehicles). Meanwhile, the PR’s pledge to reintroduce subsidies will be seen as populist posturing.

11. Any comments on the flip-flop way of the Federal government handling issue of fuel hike and inflation?

Again, see above. The flip-flopping has been resolved. The government has taken a strong position. It is a measure of its persistent strength, I think, that while demonstrations have taken place, there has been no rioting on the scale seen in other countries through which national leaders and even governments have sometimes been brought down.

12. "Crossover" issue has been haunted Barisan Nasional, particularly Anwar claiming that he'll be forming new government by 16 September, do you think this is a strategic bluff by Anwar?


It is hard to know whether Anwar really has the numbers with which to replace the government. But increasingly, he is viewed as preoccupied with bringing about this outcome, to the detriment of effective policy making in the states that the PR already controls.


As many analysts have noted, the PR would probably do better at this stage to consolidate its position than to win the doubtful loyalties of defectors and party-hoppers in search of personal rewards. But these alliances of convenience do sometimes form in Malaysia. We recall the Wawasan team led in the early 1990s by Anwar that included the likes of Mat Taib and Rahim Thamby Chik.

13. Observer claiming that Anwar manipulating crossover issue just for short term strategy to divert the attention on the PR newly-founded yet weak state government, would you agree with that?


I don’t fully understand this question, but it seems to imply that Anwar is bluffing. I don’t believe that he is. As mentioned above, he may not yet have the numbers to bring about government turnover. But he is trying through negotiations to get them.


14. We know that UMNO-dominated BN and it has been playing racial card all the way long, what's the best formula for BN to survive after 12th General Election?


UMNO did not fare as badly among Malay voters as many people seem to think that it did. More than two-thirds of its candidates were successful in winning election. And where its candidates lost, majorities were often very close. UMNO still has much appeal in the heartland.


But while retaining its ethnic Malay support, it must find ways too of reenergizing non-Malay constituents. This might happen in two ways:


first, by toning down the chauvinist expressions of Malay dominance at the general assembly meetings, which under Abdullah have been allowed to resurface (after having long been suppressed by Mahathir) and, rather foolishly, have even been publicized through state-owned and party-affiliated media outlets.


Second, it was certainly not the intention of non-Malay voters in Perak, for example, to cast protest votes in such numbers that a PAS-led MB was brought to power. In three states, now, non-Malays will be able to see how concertedly PAS pursues its Islamist agendas. Many of these voters may well calculate that in the next election, whatever its corruption, they had better ‘swing’ back to BN.


15. What are your thoughts on Pakatan Rakyat? How would you sum it up so far?


The PR was at first stunned by its own success. It lacks the personnel, the resources, the experience, and the developed policy positions with which effectively to use the power that it so unexpectedly attained (only Anwar was predicting such an outcome—as he did at a press conference here in Hong Kong).


My sense is that the opposition is doing best in Penang, where Guan Eng may shape up as an able administrator. He is also incorruptible, which goes down well with Penangites. But his attempting to dismantle some elements of the NEP, while popular among non-Malay communities in Penang, illustrates some of the challenges that the PR will face as it tries also to reach out to the Malays. Its effectiveness will be constrained too by the fact that it can expect little cooperation from the federal government and its administrative apparatus.


In Kelantan, Kedah, and increasingly Perak, PAS’s pursuit of Islamist aims will, of course, strain its relations with the DAP. The PKR is evidently ‘exhausted’ in trying to mediate between its partners.


Finally, the PKR-led government in Selangor is mired in a different set of problems (Khalid was himself, of course, a player in the ancien regime, and so carries some baggage), and, as mentioned above, will be harassed at every turn by a potent opposition.


16. Democratic Action Party, Parti Islam SeMalaysia and Parti Keadilan Rakyat has been labeled as "pact of convenience" or "shotgun marriage", do you see anything interesting inside their synergy?


More “progressive” or “professional” elements within PAS will be able to work with the PKR and the DAP. But after PAS has put on a moderate face and made electoral gains, ulama elements tend to reassert themselves, then restore the party to its Islamicizing agendas.


The very success of the PR, then, tests the “synergies” between its partners that had begun to develop while in oppostion.


17. Do you see now Malaysia is having a genuine two-party (or two-coalition) system, a salutary effect of political tsunami?


There has certainly been a dramatic increase in the competitiveness of Malaysian politics. And while many UMNO members were reportedly “enraged” by the setback that the UMNO-led coalition suffered, it will perhaps become clearer to them that their own corruption and rising communalism, unchecked by Abdullah, were responsible for this outcome. Equally encouraging is that UMNO appears to have accepted its setback, rather than trying to undermine the results—as once was so customary for it to do in Sabah, for example.


The party is also holding together, its members refusing to heed Mahathir’s call to resign in order forcefully to change the leadership. It has begun to canvass a wide range of reforms, while engaging in healthy self-criticism. And it is serving as an effective opposition in the critical state of Selangor.


On the other side, if PAS’s Islamist elements can be kept in check, the PR will be able to speak with a multitude of voices that are relevant to the very different states that it controls, while at the same retaining enough common ground (i.e. commitments to clean politics and redistributive justice) that it will persist as a coalition.


There is, then, the possibility of a competitive two-party system emerging in Malaysia. But it is not there yet, and efforts to bring the PR to power soon, if too forcefully undertaken, may keep such a system from ever forming.


Another danger is that, while much is made in this last election of the apparent willingness of many persons to vote across ethnic lines, this is easily exaggerated. Ethnic affiliations and tensions will long remain a feature of Malaysia’s political life—though it is gratifying to see that some “maturing” has taken place.


-end-

到底我們還能相信什麼?




如果你還記得阿都拉政府在2003年初上台時,最值得回味的肅貪動作就是雷厲風行提控柏華惹鋼鐵廠前董事經理丹斯里謝英福及前土地與合作社發展部長卡西達貪污。這兩宗案件成為阿都拉最具指標性的新政展現,在接下來于2004年舉行的大選時他更被包裝為「包青天」的肅貪形象。自此人民相信政府肅貪的承諾,但我們不再看到有何重量級人物被控。

謝英福已在不久前病逝,但他在去年中因控方無法舉證早被判表罪不成立,柏華惹案為何大虧損嚴格來說是無頭公案。至于卡西達案件,開審迄今4年還未審結,最近鬧上報端是恰好有證人揭露沙巴進步黨楊德利「指示移交500萬令吉」的風波,其餘的就乏善可陳了。

如果這兩宗大魚案被視為是阿都拉政府整頓舊機制、革新的象徵性動作,但認真來說只有意愿,沒有執行意志,一切不了了之。

近兩週來安華被指雞姦疑案,到峰迴路轉的驚人內幕宣誓書抖出又撤回,兩宗事件政治含量高、又涉及性、金錢與權謀纏斗,更關鍵是政府領導人牽連其中。若要一了百了,其實是需要回到檢警單位依法偵辦、交代真相,最後回歸司法單位法治定讞,才能平息天下洶洶的議論。否則群眾一片迷茫時通過網上以訛傳訛,又被責難成「叛國」行為。

事實上,安華雞姦疑云與蒙古女郎命案種種,都關乎我國整個司法與檢控機制的獨立性,放大來看是制度、結構與文化的問題。

偏偏在權謀與金錢的掛鉤、官官相護,還有安華十年前的雞姦、瀆職案蒙塵記憶,已導致人民無法相信政府機關或當權者的自我表述。

私家偵探巴拉撤回所有不利副首相納吉的宣誓書內容,是似曾相識的故事。遠的不說,近的是今年4月發生的酒店女待應向警方投報遭一名前部長兼現任國會議員非禮時,報案後卻改口聲稱自己「反應過敏」而錯認被揩油,也是靠一張法定宣誓書來推翻。

我現在在國會看到這位後座議員時,就不禁在想到底誰在說謊。

蒙古女郎炸屍案未審已轟動,大家或許只對膻色腥的內容情節有印象,但又有多少人記得主控官之一沙烈胡丁臨陣遭撤換,總檢察署給的理由是這位副檢察司自愿要提前退休?

但如今沙烈胡丁卻成為執業律師。相比與什麼「可接受肛交」等的勁爆內幕,這些枝節小事都是阿旦杜雅命案開審時添上的其他神秘色彩,可是檢控單位的總檢察署並沒有給公眾作出滿意的交代。

體制要革新是關卡重重。但公眾對一件課題只記得大標題、不理內容的通病,是一種集體遺忘的文化。

謝英福案與卡西達案的肅貪努力讓我想起阿都拉在308大選後,4月份時就「果敢」地宣佈將反貪局在今年杪轉型成為反貪委員會。其實當時他還說過要立法保護吹哨者、也宣佈會成立法官遴選委員會來擢升、安排法官。

然而聲稱受人強迫的巴拉人間蒸發近1週,在「吹哨」後亡命天涯的意味濃重,警方又神秘兮兮,那保護告密者、證人的法令在哪裡?

阿都拉也剛放話宣稱法官遴選委員會將「擱置」,但沒有詳解內情也不交代擱置何時,證明司法改革又剎車了。

如果將這些當初讓人為之一振的措施列下清單後,還有哪幾項承諾是快到期兌現的支票?我們唯有拭目以待12月份時,我們的反貪局是否會從ACA轉為MCAC。

如今安華與指控者賽夫紛紛以宗教之名發誓,彼此詭辭滿地對罵,連神聖的可蘭經也操弄成為工具。在濁世滔滔中,人民對肅貪、司法與執法檢控的素質、改進程度,已跌破了最起碼的心理底線,就因為一切與政治掛鉤,以致社會秩序與價值顛倒。

1988年司法危機爆發時我只是童騃的小學生,重溫只能看泛黃的舊報紙,1998年安華天雷勾地火被提控,我卻是一名蒙昧無知的大學生,對法理認識與一般通識也不強。2008年現在的我又目擊著一連串的疑案謎團浮現,我隱隱地相信大馬的政治歷史是有週期性的,而政府體制的舊患卻常規性地發作。

司法危機發生20年、安華浮沉也10年了,經歷了世代的沖突,我們對一個體制的信念,只看到飄渺與虛妄。到底我們還能相信什麼?像對著一片曠野,相隔幾個時空,跨越一個世代,還聽不到遠方的回應。


只是一個週日的早上

早上七時半。媽進房來問:「你是否要載我到巴剎去買菜的?」

我揉著惺忪的眼睛。驀然間驚醒起來。于是我拖著一幅還在睡夢中的身子驅車到巴剎,沒有咖啡,沒有早餐,只為了速戰速決地去巴剎。在離家到巴剎短短的路程還遇到警察設路障來檢查車子,先發制人來杜絕公眾赴趕去百萬人反油漲大集會。真是他媽的。我不明白為什麼警方要製造這些白色恐怖。可是我們這些子市民就得捱塞車。

所以一個早上的心情就這樣被破壞了。

我討厭到巴剎買菜,其實事實上我只是一個會拖著菜籃的司機而已。那個巴剎是露天、無屋瓦遮蓋沿路擺售的,如果在早上八時抵達時,東昇的太陽一定潑著陽光白花花地照射下來,以我的身高走著時,陽光是直射著我的眼睛,反之以媽媽較為嬌小的體型,可以躲在攤販的遮陽傘下。

我視每隔一週日早上去巴剎買菜是苦差。特別是週日是雙週休假日,往往無法酣睡享甜夢。

媽媽是打點一切的主人。今早她走到一個販售急凍肉類與魚丸的攤口,就問我:「你要不要買些急凍肉片吃。」

我搖頭說不要。

媽還是說,「你真的不要?你可以買來夾在麵包當早餐吃…」

我說不要。媽還是問那小販售價是多少錢,還開始討價還價般地要求只買一半云云。然後媽再問我第二遍,「你真的不要吃?」看到媽如此婆婆媽媽的狀態,我就惱怒起來,為什麼一直要我的首肯才要買一包急凍肉片?我再一次重申說「不」時,看來媽已知道我變臉了。

我告訴媽,因為我不知道這些肉片是否真正地由所謂的肉類所製造而成,我們不知道裡頭是否放了什麼含料進去,媽似乎充耳不聞。她知道我面有難色,之後就急急忙忙地選購菜色。我不知道為何媽在買菜時總是心神恍惚,行色匆匆,她可以這一攤販徘徊一陣,然後離去又折返回頭,我拖著菜籃車尾隨著她時,總是跟不上她那飄忽的步伐。

我們走著走著。到了一個賣魚攤位。魚販是一個四十餘歲的漢子,很殷切地推銷著他的魚肉,我看著他的攤位,另有妻女與一名印尼籍勞工一起幫忙。妻子就在搓著碎魚肉,女兒則是剛剛進入青春期的少女,一臉青澀。然而,那女兒非常賣力地也在推銷著,她學著超越她生理年齡的口吻說著一般家庭主婦的話:「這些魚很好吃的,這條很新鮮,安娣,就買這條啦…」

我看著這一家三口,老實說是長相平凡,五官並不端正,衣著也是泛著魚腥味的,還沾著顯而易見的污跡。我再打量一下那少女,一幅老氣橫秋的樣子,牙齒長得不工整,披肩的長髮是叉絲滿頭,不能說是標青。

然而,她看起來是真誠的。

她替媽媽拿了一條魚,秤了後,說出價格來,然後再拿去給她的父親去處理切割。再用筆在一份臨時作記錄簿的報紙記錄下來,我想應該是記帳,就用那些報紙的空白處記下。之後,她又轉身去招徠其他客人了,相當機伶。

總之她的身影,看起來她是非常投入這份工作。我可以感覺到她有著一股熱誠在裡頭。

她應該只是一名初中生。在週日假期時,就來協助父母親看守攤位。

難道她不怕髒嗎?如果是我要浸淫在腥臊的魚攤內一整天,還要去觸摸血淋淋的魚肉等,我可能干不下去。

她已做到一個我做不到的事情,那是一項成就。

接著我繼續觀察其他攤位。都是一家大小出動來幫手。賣菜的、砍豬肉的、賣糕點的、賣熟食的,都是輪廓相似的臉孔周旋在客人的身邊。不少都是年輕的孩子,似是繼承祖業般地呆在那兒。我看到其中一個年輕的豬肉屠手,如果他稍微裝扮下可當成一個斯文的上班族。但我看著他熟稔地拿著屠刀拿起一塊塊豬肉,再觀察到他的手臂是遒勁粗大時,我知道他一定是投入這一行有一段時間。

如果這是他們的生計的話,那麼為了家庭與祖業,那麼他們是否會從此將青春都奉獻在這些小販生涯中?為什麼他們肯幫忙父母親看檔呢?為了孝順,他們是否喜歡正在做的事情?

當然,我不知道。我只是將自己擺放到他們的位置上去設想我的心情。

然後,我再轉頭看著在選購水果的媽,陽光已是白花花地照下來,我走過去媽的身旁,就一起看她買水果。我此生不吃水果,對一些水果的認識不深。我指著一顆黃澄澄的水果問:到底這是什麼呢?

媽說,這叫做哈蜜瓜。

那一剎那我覺得自己有些白痴。連哈蜜瓜也不知道?我在巴剎站在媽媽的身旁時,覺得自己像一個受著保護的小孩,而我能做些什麼來奉獻我的力量?

所以,我就靜靜地平和自己的心情。告訴自己,只是兩週一次的巴剎載送,不應有何埋怨了。然後看著菜籃裡一大堆肉菜蔬果,我知道媽媽也在做著一項我無法做到的成就。

送你上神檯



週五的晚上駕著汽車駛出停車場,整條Asian Heritage街已鬧起了喧囂的音樂,你可以感受到強勁音樂的鑼鼓撼動著脈博,這應是狂歡的週末晚上。有人將車子停泊在這塊爛泥巴的曠地上,讓自己的身體投入在歌舞昇平中。我看到三個美媚挺著高拔的高跟鞋,一搖一晃地走出停車場正要越過馬路到酒吧去,其中一名還在整著她露肩的連身吊裙,似乎裙子都要從酥胸滑跌下來了。

紅男綠女,酒紅燈綠,我看到這三名婀娜多姿的身影,才發覺我很久沒有去夜店去蒲了。即使報館對面就是那一條夜店街,然而這是一個不屬于自己的世界。

回到家時,已是晚上11時,然後我吃晚餐。



時間感覺依然是錯亂。我在週六的晚上回到家時,家人在看著「超級無敵獎門人」了,我看著電視,啊,原來電視台又播著最新一季的獎門人了。

我捧著饑餓的肚子貼在餐桌上吃著我的晚餐,恍然記起我很久都沒有看這節目了。最後一次看是幾時?我聽到家人嘻嘻哈哈的笑聲,就覺得很陌生。

是否是十年前的事情?那時我應該是準時守候在電視機前狩獵著這節目。我一邊吃著飯,有些緬懷當年的自己如此白痴,會如此痴迷這些綜藝節目。

但那應該是一份幸福。至少現在我已喪失這種情懷了。



我在今午時有一股沖動就想灌一杯濃濃的朱古力咖啡,就是要那種有忌廉繞纏的那種,我想起我很久很久沒有如此奢侈地享受一杯這樣的飲料。多得HL的陪伴,與我一起到報館後的星巴克去買一杯Dark Mocha,掏錢時才發覺原來是16令吉一杯。

這等于我4天的午餐開支。不過,在壓抑與窒悶的氛圍下,花一筆這樣的錢來讓自己愜意一番是值得的。

然後與HL聊著近來煩心的工事。我才發覺這是第一次在下午茶時間這樣溜出來偷渡一些時光。就為了讓自己鬆懈下來,逃離硬梆梆、理性加客觀的文字世界所捆綁。

回到報館時在開著4時的編輯部會議,大家才談到說難怪感到有些郁悶,因為報館的冷氣似乎溫度太高了。

而樓下的裝修工程似是沒完沒有,除了煙塵,還有黏著耳膜的鑽地板聲音是揮之不去的夢魘。

就像
安華的雞姦案一樣,到底幾時才會了結?



週四的早上,我出現在國會走廊做一個專訪,見到許多昔日常見的舊戰友。

除了寒暄,他們最慣有的開場白是:「你上了『神檯』還要出來行走江湖?」

「神檯」是報館一個很特殊的術語,就是指該些所謂上位,而理應收山的升級記者,現在是坐在桌子上當編輯審稿,就像坐上神檯一樣「高高在上」,要人供奉。其實也帶著一股貶損的意味,就是說只像是神主牌拿來擺放,沒甚功用。

我望著他們,不知如何回答。與其說newsdesk是神檯,不如說是一個祭壇,我們就是祭品。為什麼有人以為坐上神檯就是做了老佛爺,萬人朝拜?

所以,這種開場白的問候語,不知是真心,還是挖苦。我無法一一道個清楚。其中最重與最繁瑣的事情是──審稿。

如果每天有14個版的話,我最多要負責審與編輯其中10個版面,每個版面若是平均有4則新聞的話,就會有40則大大小小的零散稿件要審,另加至少10張圖片的說明。

再加上不少稿件隨著事態的演變,在一天內或會有幾個層次的變化而需要重新改寫、或是拆成不同的篇幅處理,一篇稿可以變身、動刀幾次。到最後才能將稿件送到發稿主任處。

有些稿件甚至是改到最完美後,到了截稿時間後突然間變得無關痛痒,整篇稿件就扔掉,意味著之前所做的一切全是白費。

因此,每一天我們負責審閱的稿量,其實是可以到100篇次的。

除了要讀、審重寫稿件,還得要每15分鐘去翻看《馬新社》新聞網,電子郵箱的文告或採訪通知、各大名人部落格的最新的更新文章、網絡媒體、世界各地在谷歌新聞站隨時翻新的大馬新聞,還有我身後的傳真機是否無端端卡住了紙張。

這不包括要接聽電話來查詢「你們報館會派人採訪我們的節目嗎?」、「你們有收到我的傳真嗎?」,還有編輯詢問「那新聞是否有相片?」

還有一些讀者會打來分享意見,我盯著熒幕時一邊聽著他們在高談闊論。又或者,就是上司一聲令下開會──就是為了要做新聞策劃,或是要浸浴在一些即興而起的口水戰中。

許多時候,我望著收稿軟件上源源不絕的稿件時,我怔忡得不知所措。我打開稿件要審閱時,我的思緒會像晃得厲害的香檳酒瓶一樣沖開瓶塞,四處迸散。

這還不包括與其他前線同事採訪時的溝通,得聆聽他們匯報採訪回來的新聞材料,然後協助他們釐清新聞重點、前後排序要點,這包括隨著口齒不清摸不清楚狀況的同事一起遊花園。

然後上網抓一些新聞讓他們翻譯。很多時候報館完全人手真空時,就自己著手翻譯。

安排了採訪工作,分配了新聞翻譯時,新聞從記者手中送上來時,我才發覺一些新聞的處理完全是不符合新聞價值的排序。

有時記者的稿件甚至是錯別字連篇、語句不通、主旨不分、字裡行間不邏輯、不知所云,這叫人最頭痛;又或是平鋪直敘、資料不齊全,許多時候我讀著這些稿件時,就如同被人灌入白開水一樣到肚子裡,你只會覺得飽漲,但一點味道也沒有。

于是,我一直將腦袋中的句子與字眼搬來覆去,造句,又造句,釐清脈絡,又掏空著記憶,那種審稿的過程像是在堆砌又拆牆,那是一種摧毀又重建的工程,不停地搬演著。

我啟動鍵盤打字,舞動著cut and paste搬動重要的段落,加插字眼增刪語氣後,到最後同事投訴我:怎麼將我的稿件改得面目全非?

難道之前我給的指示不夠清晰嗎?難道他們不懂得怎樣去拿捏新聞重點,不知道如何控制篇幅的字數嗎?難道他們沒有去思考他們下筆時的新聞訊息不明確嗎?

每次我讀著這些稿件,「為她人作嫁衣」的念頭就油然浮上,你只能為她人縫製著一件件漂亮的嫁衣,但新娘永遠不會是你。

有時,我真的就有一種沖動在想,我是否就這樣輕易地將稿件過關,不必多番動筆來修改,只修改一些錯別字,那麼他們的稿件就不會面目全非?那麼我可以省下多些力氣,不必如此操勞。

可是當你想起報章編印出來後,就是白紙黑字的一份歷史記錄,那是不容許一絲疏忽的專業操守,那是對讀者與自己專業的一種交代。

難道就為了得過且過輕鬆一些,就讓自己妥協了文稿的質量?那就會影響整份報紙的素質啊。

我將新聞寫作視為一種創作,那是一項文字與脈絡在梳理後的表達,至少在揀選字眼、在呈獻要點時花些心思、多一些自我審核的工作如翻查字典或對證資料等,那是一項繡花般精細的工作,但是有人寫稿就像灌水般交行貨。

我應該將這股理念宣揚出去?我是否是將自己要的100分加諸在同事身上?又或者他們其實已卯足了氣力但只是我看不到100分?

我真的不知道。我問著自己時,發覺腦袋就糾結起來了。

當我想到女上司即將拿產假,我將孑然一身要連續兩個月獨撐大旗時,我的腦袋更是沉重起來。我不知道自己能負荷多久這樣的週而複始的工作量。



但我還是喜歡書寫的。

在報館時讀著一些外報新聞時,總是一邊檢討著自己其實在呈獻同樣的新聞時可以做得更好。同時,也會湧現出千軍萬馬般的意見與看法想要抒洩出來,我就告訴著自己:回家慢慢blogging吧。

但許多時候這些看法就即時消耗在新聞跟進的題裁上,又或者到最後回到家時我發覺自己的腦袋是處于停電狀況,我就說,下次才寫吧。

然後就將這部落格晾曬著了。

之前有撰寫報章
《太陽底下》無稿費的專欄,當時我要撰寫也是要過一過手癮,但我發覺似乎沒有引起什麼共鳴,我有試過兩週沒有交稿竟然沒人過問,更無人察覺,似乎這專欄是可有可無的窗口。所以我就停寫了。

所以,我就一個人呆著,回到閱讀、網遊的世界,只有自己獨處能找到一些能量與養份。

只是要很用心書寫,寫一篇專題,寫一篇文章,似乎已是離我很遙遠,卻又很奢侈的事情。




所以,這就是所謂的「神檯」?這就是所謂的高薪人士?I wonder。只是我覺得當別人以為我們似是高人一等時,我們也是夾心餅。

或許別人會搬出激勵書式的話對我說:有得必有失,或是懂得取捨等的,是啊,你升職加薪,當然也伴隨著應得的責任、職務等。

剛讀了于丹的《論語心得》,她提到一個小故事:「一座佛寺裡供著一個花崗岩雕刻的佛像,這佛像的台階也是采自同一座山體的花崗石砌成的。

有一天這些台階不服氣,就對佛像抗議說:來自同一個山體,憑什麼人們都著我們去膜拜你啊?你有什麼了不起?

那佛像說:因為你們只經過四刀就走上了今天這個崗位,而我是經過千刀萬剐才得以成佛的。」

那麼,我就視現在的情況是千錘百煉的一部份吧。細想之下,當別人對我說:你上了神檯,我應該自豪地告訴他:「因為我值得」。

但我已失去了自由與社交生活

安華雞姦案速讀



安華遭男助理指控雞姦疑雲讓我們霧裡看花。陰謀論、爆內幕等的新聞處理讓我們有些疲累。前天我用電郵專訪了新加坡東南亞研究院院士,黃基明博士來談談當今的時勢,看看學者們如何用理性的角度去解讀這課題。

現在焦點都兜轉在安華身上,早前阿都拉受促下台的呼聲又過眼雲煙了。那麼,阿都拉幾時會下台呢?黃基明認為首相阿都拉可能會繼續呆在位子上,甚至留任1年至2年。

而隨著欽點接班人副首相納吉又再次陷入蒙古女郎案的旋渦中,看起來阿都拉將是繼續在位的最佳人選,即使大馬面對著外圍世界的外患時顯得有些欲振乏力,但政治演變將騎劫了所有人的注意力。

安華的雞姦疑云已開始掀起滾雪球效應,那幾時會掀起骨牌效應?我們還有很多疑問,包括逼在眼前的9月16日,安華早前已宣稱排隊當首相了。但如今是否成行?

1. How do you feel when you first heard of the latest sodomy accusation again?

My reaction to the news was: Oh no, not again. When I wrote that the system is bankrupt of ideas in an article last year, I didn't realise how right I was.

2. Would your think that the sodomy charge is politically motivated and persecute Anwar politically?

The thing is, we will never know. The way politics is played in MAlaysia, all the institutions command very little credibility, so how are we to believe anything that is said about the subject.

3. Now we see emerging conspiracy theory and who is behind this getting more speculations. What do you see this accusation would affect Abdullah’s weakening government, Najib and Anwar personally?

The thing is, this will not hurt the government more than the elections had done. Voters showed that there was a crisis of confidence in the government, and that power had gone to the heads of BN's leadership.

For the voters, this is further proof that they were right in voting so strongly to teach the government a lesson. It also shows the government has not learned its lesson.It will instead hurt Anwar and PR.

PKR is unlike DAP and PAS in the sense that the latter two gained more than they ever hoped was possible, so they are happy to merely consolidate their power for the time being, and watch UMNO disintegrate.

PKR and Anwar, despite winning so much, have ambitions of taking over the federal government. DAP and PAS feel that PKR is moving too fast, and wanting too much too soon, and that, in their minds, would be why BN and UMNO, who are still in power -- let us not forget that -- are hitting back at Anwar now.

4. Do you think it would giving any impact on Abdullah “retiring” plan which seemingly will be last in office till year end?

No, no impact. I suspect that his retirement plan will be to stay as president even after December, and then, in a year or two, he will retire. This will hurt UMNO least, the supreme council would be thinking.

5. Police force has promised to conduct investigation, while the gossip story coming around the society. What would be the best way for the BN government to do, to minimize its impact?

The government should keep out of it, and if anything, they should make it clear to the police, who are used to looking for hints from their political masters, that they should merely follow the law.

6. Do you think this sort of dissatifaction sense from DAP and PAS, would affect PR's synergy and co-operation? Is this serve as a acid test for PR since it has been labelled as "pact of convenience" or shotgun Marriage"?

What has happened has caught DAP and PAS by surprise. Apparently, Anwar was planning to move against the govt when the report against him was mad. at the same time, he was warned that he was to be attacked.

The DAP and PAS think it best to say as little as possible. the dissatisfaction with the speed of things is not strong enough for PR to break apart, especially if they think that BN is resorting to unconstitutional and illegal means to get what its wants. They will read it as BN becoming desperate, and that PR must stick together now more than ever.

DAP and PAS know that without Anwar, PR may very well disappear, so they will support him for as long as possible.

7. By the way, don't you think Anwar's sodomy charge will adding to his popularity & appeal to the masses? He surely can gains some political mileage and get some sympathy votes while defending himself..

For the Malaysian public, the sodomy case will just be one more example of the decadent style of governance that UMNO is now associated with, so yes, Anwar will gain sympathy and support because of it.』